My maternity leave ends tomorrow.
Pause for tears.
Over the past week I have been doing my best to focus on enjoying my days at home with my boys and not think about the fact that I now have to leave my little baby and crazy toddler for 10 hour stretches four days a week. I know I am lucky to have three days off with them each week but three days is not the seven days I have grown accustom to over the past three months.
Now don't get me wrong, I am blessed to have a job that I love (for the most part, on most days). My coworkers are some of my best friends and I am so excited to see them and catch up on what I've missed. I'm happy to have some time away from the the Land of Cartoons and Fingerpaint where I can talk to other adults and share my new motherhood adventures with my patients. Overall work is a good thing for me and and I really am excited to go back, I just can't help but want a little more time at home too. Even during the longest and most dreadful winter in history, my twelve weeks at home went by incredibly fast. I feel like it was just yesterday that I was ringing in the new year as a patient on my unit and now it's time to go back as a nurse.
Deep breath.
Due to the fact that I had ridiculously high expectations of what I was going to accomplish with my time off, I was beginning to feel like a bit of a disappointment last week. I was supposed to organize all of our closets, work on a few DIY projects for the kids and tackle a few home enhancements. With the exception of one closet and a sewing project that I crammed in just last week, my life is only more disorganized and my home more dirty than it was pre-baby. And I suppose that's how it should be. A newborn is only a newborn for so long. Lounging on the couch with Rhys each afternoon as Calvin napped was much more enjoyable than crossing off a few things on my endless to-do list. But we did manage to get a few things done over the past twelve and I have some photos as evidence.
How we spent my maternity leave..
1. Ringing in the new year with our new Rhys
2. Reading books
3. Celebrating Cal's 2nd birthday over and over again
4. Sleeping on the couch with the little guy
5. Attending a few birthday parties
6. Going to toddler music/art/activity play-group each week
7. Playing in the snow
8. Setting up a quiet corner for Rhys in the guestroom
9. Goofing around with cousin Jack
10. Getting haircuts
11. Buying a new car
12. Attending gymnastics classes
13. Enjoying few date nights
14. Inventing several indoor snow day activities
15. Road-tripping to visit family in Minnesota
Not too shabby, maternity leave!
Now I'm off to find my ID badge so I can get paid when I show up to work tomorrow afternoon.
And I will not cry on my way in.
I will try not to cry on my way in.